its just words, they wont flow i can try all i like to produce something to let something flow from the inner reaches of my conciousness, try and fucking produce something deep and meaningful but i cant.
i write a paragraph or two check for spelling and then actually read it, and its superficial crap.
its not what i want to write i dont wanna make up shit i wanna show some real meaning something that maybe someone will read and think “you know what i actually get that i can relate to what he’s thinking.”
but it wont come out.
this is a start maybe ill be able to let some feelings loose onto a page some time soon…